Lost Again...

So here I am now finding myself at a place I no longer want to be. Don't take this too literally folks. What I mean to say is I think I have gotten life all wrong. I am living, but not loving to the degree that I should. I want so much to be happy, laugh, and love with a whole heart, but I forgot how -if indeed I ever did. It's kind of sad, but yet kind of a relief. I mean after all I can take steps to make changes.

I googled it! "It" being, finding peace with yourself - the results were not really helpful. I decided to tell someone, but they got upset and sent me to bed. Started a chat with a friend, but three seconds in I realized that she too was like me.

Now what...

Well my hope is to blog just to get it out. My thoughts, feelings... I don't expect, want or not want anyone to read or comment. I am doing this for me. Now this is novel in my life - for me...

Once again please don't get the impression that I am one of those people who do everything for other people. As a matter of fact the few acts of "kindness" I do for others I do with an attitude or because in the long run I am going to get stuck doing it anyway.

Let's see what this being lost helps me find.