Another Day...

Another day of more than the same, but with little differences.

People are finally starting to take notice of my weight loss and that is really nice. However, people think that my having the surgery was supposed to be this quick fix and I guess they are surprised that I haven't lost more. I also think they are surprised to see that I am able to eat regular food (I surprise myself with that as well). It's weird I almost feel guilty eating in front of certain people to the point that I find myself being a bit spiteful about my choices. Don't get me wrong I'm not eating a Big Mac or anything like that, but I think I am expected to eat only salads and tofu and that is not who I am. I like food and while I am certainly eating less of it, I am still eating it. I will be on vacation next week and my hope is that I can try some new recipes so that I can eat a variety of things that are healthier for me as I recognize that I am in a dangerous place. Truth is I am, thus far, able to eat the exact same way I ate before - except I eat less of it and stay full longer. I am envious of all those who are able to say things like I ate four bites and I was totally satisfied - is that for real or is it really mind of matter. I have tried having a yogurt for breakfast and it just doesn't cut it- I am hungry in an hour. Oatmeal sustains me longer, but still. Anyway I am happy with where I am at and I acknowledge that I am not doing all that I need to, to make this work for me - ( I need to get myself exercising) - although I have one hundred excuses as to why I am not doing that. I guess the truth is I am a very bad bandster. Perhaps I need a really good talking to.